Had a brief brush with not being in Ketosis yesterday. Stupid throat infection (I had suspected it was tonsilitis) I thought...'yeah I will be OK to eat these Halls sugar free throat sweets' When apparently no I wasn't OK to eat them.
HMPHH!
Had a good old Bridget Jones dry brush of myself after my shower this morning, wanted a bath but Dad came round. Was really super to see him, I haven't seen him for exactly a month and he said that I look FAB AND he called me 'Slim' as in 'See ya later Slim' which made my day! I have stopped seeing the results myself really and starting to rely on people noticing to know that it is going well. Still a scaredy cat of the mirror and never have a good old look in one. Catching myself in reflections is funny, I did go back for a second look as I couldn't believe how different my face has become.
So the lapsing with the cabbage thing has made it difficult this week... oooooo wanting every bloody thing.
I walked all the way to Morrisons 'i'm gonna eat, nothing can stop me, I am an adult if I want to eat I will make that decision to eat!' crap rumbling through my mind. I filled up my basket with grapes, kiwi fruits, onion bhaji, spring onions. walking round 'I could have a Cumberland sausage ring if I want one, maybe I do, maybe I will...' I keep walking the whole of the shop and end up leaving with a bottle of bloody water as I deposited the rest of the basket around the shop, changing my mind as I went.
Again today I went into Wilkinson's bought a massive bag of Haribo Strawbs(no way not a regular, small, 10p bag, but a EFF off mega bag for £1.59... I walked around with it weighing me down for a little while... I am a loonatic I mentioned this in the title! Anyway I went back and asked for a refund, 'reason for refund?' ..... 'Erm... I bought them accidently?'
It is official I have lost my marbles!Why am I doing this to myself? Why don't I just stay away from the bloody places?
I am hoping to god that there is some form of good news today in the weight loss stakes.
I have been doing the thought record things this week too. As soon as I think to myself 'I'm gonna eat chicken, or I'm going to eat onions' I wander back in my mind to see if I can work it out, turns out I think I eat if I have something to celebrate, I eat if I am having a shit day, I eat if I am bored. Now what... find something else to do in all of those situations!
Please please god let me be in Ketosis when I go to the meeting tonight and I will stop thinking about food so much and I will limit my Food Porn viewing to twice a week!?
FlabbyArmed Shell x
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